In the middle of nowhere, I am lost in a deep crowded noise and loud voices. Where am I, what I am
doing. Tremendous Whys with no single satisfactory answer. Who am I stands
still the cruel question that breaks my mind. The true I is not found at
all. Sometimes I am that caring and kind generous person. Other time without
any previous sign, I turn to be so rude, harsh and senseless. Why this is
happening, why I am not stable. I feel myself so free, while certainly I am
not. I am still prison in my fears, desires and dreams. Even now, while,I am writing
I feel myself swinging between various selves that I really don’t know.
Now I do really don’t
care about anything, while I do care about everything. Searching for myself
searching for the truth. Am I really searching for the truth this is another
question with no answer. I am just wondering when I’ll find a single answer for
such mess.
This is how I start my
journey, I will go with each character with its different feelings, I will
write down every single detail about it and then I may find my treasure!
Straight line is just
that Invisible thing that I cannot touch, Meanwhile, I know it by my heart. I
can feel it I can notice how my life positively changes when I am following it.
However, wonders still kicking my mind, what if it was just an illusion?! What
if all these straightness are just some inherited concepts?! Nothing more than
a collective believes! It might be so. I am on a stage that I am sure of
nothing.
How can I assure that
all what I have is right or true?! What is the difference between being right
and being true!? The answer is I don’t know yet.
I am watching an
episode called the Ancient Aliens, It represents an enormous amount of
questions related to our existence on the Earth as well as the knowledge and
science we already access nowadays. Since the very first series, my mind has
been knocked at the idea of science in itself and there is a possibility that
all what we have now of all knowledge and sciences are just delivered from
outsider aliens. They assume that they’ve found proofs and evidence of what
they are saying. These kind of information may change my life upside down or
may not I don’t know. I want just to widen my ears, heart and mind to
understand such shocking thing.
I believe that the
earth is full of secrets and magical things to discover. I guess it is my time
to stand strongly like a mountain of shoulder such changes. In the process
of advanced improvement I am ready to
claim.
